I apologize (to the nothing that reads this) for having not posted for such a long time. There is so much to reflect on.
I have returned to the City, where life itself is towed aft of the events that keep the City alive. It is my first time in the City during the summer. I have been lucky enough as to never need summer school. This summer however I am living and working in a new City, the same City, but this time the City is wearing Summer Clothes. There is a new fresh sense of place in the City now, a sort of more extreme passion. The passion for pride. Pride in townies "property" and pride in townies "toursitability." Fortunately I am neither a visitor nor a resident. Sudo temporary live in nanny. I like it anyway.
Working in big business is a whole different world. I would like to think that I am working for THE big business. THE big brother of sorts. I have the opportunities of a lifetime here, my future may very well start now. But, there are always options... With graduate school coming up I am thinking about how everything may work out. Free school, work in my field, do something crazy, there are just too many options.
I suppose this is what life is about. The more you are exposed to the more there IS to BE exposed to. When you are a child your world is in this one room. As you grow your world expands to your street, in elementary school - your town, in high school - your state, in the university - THE WORLD.
This expanding breadth of exposure goes right along with knowledge. The more you KNOW the more you have the CAPACITY TO know. It is not a linear arrow of concentricity of knowledge, but a growing sponge of knowledge that the wetter it gets the larger it gets, and the more absorbent it is. As the human race reveal information, the information itself only tantalizes us by hinting towards even more information that is just around the river bend. In essence, the more you know, the less (in relativity) you actually know. It is all a cat and dog AND mouse side-show effectively and exponentially turning knowledge into lack of knowledge. This is life though, and it is just too much for us to handle. This is why the human race relies so heavily on FAITH.
Faith is the only concrete idea we have. It is built off the constructive ignorance to chaos. We acknowledge that there is a chaotic world and we accept it. We know that our steadfast faith will show order in contrast to the chaos. If we seek order not within this universal faith, we’ll procure a more chaotic chaos thereto. The terms ignorance, acceptance and acknowledgement probably have harsh, negative connotations that infer not what I am trying to. They are the closest in meaning in so far as to hint towards an order of truth behind the function of a universal faith. But what if we look at this universal faith as something more perturbing to the faithful? Is universal faith nothing more than the belief in the system of order that is chaos? If this is true then we must not have knowledge of life, all we have is a welcoming of life. A “que sera sera” of faith.
